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My crystal talked to me!

I was never really that much into crystals. I’ve always been into working with plants and herbs, angels and divination methods such as oracle cards and rune stones and just good old-fashioned channeling without any use of of accessories. I have however always had a fascination with elementals and have communicated with elementals.

If you are reading this article it’s safe to assume that you know what elementals are, are aware of elementals in your surroundings, and may have had contact with elementals. I mean we’ve all had contact with elementals but I mean intentional contact with elementals. Crystals are also a part of the elemental realm, but somehow I was never really a crystal person. Many of my fellow intuitives have entire altars covered in crystals. Mine is pretty simple compared to some of the elaborate alters I’ve seen. I have some raw quartz and some sage and some candles and feathers and my oracle decks, rune stones, and a few decorative ornaments such as angels, dolphins and wolves and that’s pretty much it.

Apart from the raw quartz that I collected on a hike while still living in the Arizona desert (with permission from Gaia) the only crystals that I have are pieces of jewelry that I have only recently acquired in the last two or three years. All of these pieces of jewelry have been gifted to me. There’s only one piece of crystal jewelry that I have ever bought myself, and one of the few crystals that I have had for a very long time, actually the only one I’ve had for a very long time. And that is a tiny polished amethyst that I bought at a psychic fair when I was barely 17 years old. They say that the crystals you buy or receive as gifts are meant for you and nobody else, they carry energetic puzzle pieces that match you alone and nobody else. If a crystal ends up in your possession it’s because it chose you. Crystals are alive just like any other elemental that’s out there, just like the trees are alive, just like the ocean is alive, everything that is and has been part of nature carries the essence of source energy within it. Over the years I have worked with all kinds of energies, from nature spirits and spirit animals to archangels to cosmic guides and past and parallel life soul aspects.. it never dawned on me that I had never truly worked with my crystals, or ever considered communicating with them the way that I communicate with all my other spiritual guides, not until a few days ago.

These last couple of months I started wearing that little polished amethyst again on my necklace. I felt pulled towards it again and even talked about it in a moon circle that I am a part of. How after not wearing it for a very long time, I suddenly started wearing it again and how it felt right at the time. Like it was assisting me on some level. About a week ago while wearing the crystal around my neck I saw an image in my mind’s eye of the amethyst elemental. She showed herself to me and asked me to draw her portrait. I have been drawing all kinds of beings and now she requested a portrait so I was more than happy to. A few days later another image showed itself in my mind’s eye. I was absentmindedly doing laundry when suddenly I saw the amethyst fall off of the necklace on the street while I was riding my bike. The necklace still intact, even the ring that attached the stone to the chain was still there, just the crystal itself, was gone. I saw the exact street and instantly felt panic and resistance. I pushed the idea out of my head and immediately heard “it’s meant to happen, I have done my work with you and you will not find me again if you look for me, I will return to the earth, you will get a new amethyst and it will be a higher aspect of me which will suit you better in the future” so again I pushed the idea out of my head feeling lots of resistance and I went on with my day, doing laundry and other things, forgetting all about the little vision I had..

Fast forward 2 hours later to when I arrived at my client’s house, I look down and the amethyst is no longer there. The necklace was still intact, even the ring that attached the stone to the chain was still there, just the crystal itself, was gone, just like I was shown in my mind’s eye barely 2 hours earlier. I was so mad at myself for not listening to my intuition! “Maybe I could have prevented it if I just listened” I immediately thought. But the little voice in the back said “nope, this was meant to happen, you will get a new one and it will serve you better”.

I checked on my way back too though, of course I didn’t find it. And of course I heard it too saying “you won’t find me anymore, I’ve gone back to the earth, you don’t need me anymore” and I felt resistance again and anger. Then it said “why would you hold on to the old when you can embrace the new”.

This experience has been one that was needed. I have gained a whole new perspective on communicating with crystals and I am so thankful to source for providing me with this experience, and grateful for the time I was allowed to spend with the little polished amethyst and very grateful that she actually said goodbye before she left!

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What it means to become conscious… 

That’s the title of Matt Kahn’s latest video on youtube. And coincidentally it’s also the thing that has been coming up for a lot of people collectively now with the corona virus.

I’ve talked about it before in my article “choose the timeline of love and health” . But now that the virus has been going on for quite some time we seem to be at a crossroads. Either we focus on light and abundance and taking control of our own energetic reality which ultimately results in our own physically manifested reality which in this case means health, radiance, immunity, strength.. Or we drop down into fear, anxiety, irritability, confusion, sickness… We get to choose.

If this is still a bridge too far for you, start small, if you can’t make that change of mindset yet on an energetic level, try small, in your physical reality, by eating healthy, exercising, taking vitamins and supplements, drinking enough water, looking into natural remedies to boost immunity, spend lots of time outside in the sun, stuff like that. But the choice is yours. Below is a little audio excerpt from Matt Kahn’s latest youtube video, it’s a minute and a half, but it may very well be the most important minute and a half of the whole hour and a half video. For the full version go to Matt Kahn’s youtube channel, definitely worth listening!

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Dare To Ask

Dare to ask

As many of you know spirituality or the experience of spirituality or your spiritual journey doesn’t have to end when you become a mother. I am working on a book titled “spiritual mothering” so I would know.
Spirituality changes, transforms.. when you become a mother. You gain a different perspective on your spiritual journey, on creating and on source and the energetic connection of your soul and those around you to, source.

Many moms almost gloat and brag about their martyr role. I know I sure have my moments when I get caught up in it but I never identify with it. I am a mom, but I am many things and mom is just one of them. If I were to identify with 1 word it would be creator. I am a creator of many things, portraits, a solid bond between myself and my children, pancakes and cookies, nice cups of tea, good conversations, books, ..  That’s a trap we simply have to rise above, identifying with the “martyr” role of motherhood, the “#momlife”. Especially during these challenging corona times where we’re all quarantined and where we often have no alone time when we are at home with the kids.

That’s when the title of this article came to me from source: “Dare To Ask”. I like it so much that I’m even considering adding another chapter to my book titled just that. And I have had my table of contents determined for months now. But “Dare To Ask” is something that many moms just refuse to do, out of pride, out of stubbornness, out of habit. But daring to ask for help is the ultimate act of self-love as a mother. It’s of the utmost importance to invest in yourself emotionally as much as you invest in others. As a mother, and as a person in general.

I’ve written an entire chapter in my book about it, I’m still working on it. There are lots of creative ways to find time alone with yourself and with spirit. To be present in the moment and grounded and calm. And if there is one thing that mothers are good at it’s being creative, we created small humans after all. So be creative. If possible find moments alone. And if that’s not possible, there are many creative ways to find moments of peace while being surrounded by other people.
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When you wake up and you are lucky enough to have a partner at home with you, dare to ask for help. Dare to take a moment to sit in the grass and drink a coffee or a cup of tea. Dare to ask for alone time to recharge because not only are you hitting the reset button on yourself instead of overloading, you’re also teaching your children that time on their own is an essential part of life.

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Being present in pandemic times.

As a collective we are going through unprecedented times. Times that we have not yet seen before in our modern day society. Times where we are being forced (by law even) to slow down or even stop completely. For some people this causes a feeling of panic in their chest, for others relief, and for others a feeling of confusion. What is this unknown and how do we deal with it? We’re being asked to really trust in this unknown future. But dropping in, and stopping the rat race is what we are all being asked to do right now, by source. Your source within you. The one that many of you lost touch with when placed here on this earth. Where do you come from? Who are you? Many of us would not be able to answer that question when asked. But they would be able to answer a bunch of trivial questions about trivial things. But the essential question “who are you” is one that many do not know the answer to. The answer is simple. You are love, you are source energy. Who are you? You are so and so and you are x years old. No.. who ARE you.. Has anyone ever really asked you that question? They have not.

I Am that I Am.

Moses asks what he is to say to the Israelites when they ask which God has sent him to them, and source replies, “I am that I am, ‘I am’ has sent me to you.” During these pandemic times more and more people are discovering that they are the I Am, that they just..are.. Being asked to slow down is a beautiful thing. A necessary phase that we all have to experience sometimes. An intuitive phase that many people often resist. 93838234_3976804045664905_6057127807010471936_nThey will deny themselves that they ARE the I Am presence. The presence and energy that is within every moment as long as you are present enough. They will numb themselves with so much stuff, so much multitasking, so many things to do and places to go and people to see, that they don’t see themselves.

In what aspects of life have you found that you have slowed down and how have you actually gained more from doing less?

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Lion’s gate, conscious motherhood, adversity==>contrast==>growth.

Lion’s gate

We’ve passed most of this year’s Lion’s gate and have one day left tomorrow. As every year it causes a big energetic shift within us, whether we’re aware of it or not. Whether you are up to date on the latest astrological developments and know what is going on cosmically, whether you believe that we are influenced by certain star/planetary alignments or not. Most people go through a certain shift during this time of the year.

We see it on the news, even Gaia herself shifts and purges energy, releasing old energy (tornadoes in Amsterdam?), more emotional violence taking place (shootings, attacks, murders), no one escapes the shift that occurs in energy during this astrological new year basically.

Especially because this year’s Lion’s gate followed a pretty intense Mercury Retrograde, it was very palpable and the contrast was immense. The Lions Gate is basically a star alignment between Gaia and Sirius. It’s called this way because it occurs in the astrological sign of Leo. And each year when these stars line up because of this alignment high frequency vibrations are released that influence our auric fields and energetic bodies. It resonates with certain particles of our system which causes intense and rapid spurts or growth which can be accompanied by growing pains so to speak. Which for us creates more spiritual activation.

So if you’ve been feeling off, experienced very high emotions one moment, very low the next, it’s your system integrating all these frequencies and the best thing to do during this accelerated time of astrological surges is to just flow with what comes. With the feelings and don’t resist, it’s this resistance that creates more tension and just makes life harder. Which brings me to my next topic.

conscious motherhood

These surges and energy shifts are also noticeable on social media. I can tell from just reading the daily posts that appear in some of the spiritual circles I am a member of online. There is one online women’s circle where a woman, conscious mother wrote about how much empathy she felt for mothers who were clearly losing it during this specific time. And if you are a mom.. I know you’re lying if you plan on telling me that in all of your mothering years you have never felt this way. Because I know you have, I have! It’s motherhood and it’s challenging but it’s possible, and even more, it’s growth and it’s strengthening. She felt bad for the moms who were sat on the couch in tears, crying day after day about how hard it was, how they felt like they had lost themselves. And I feel their pain too. I commented on her post because I too see it and have experienced it and that is partly also what got me into the idea of offering an e-book about this topic. What I told her was the following

“It is important that we, as moms demand from themselves that we thrive as a mom, as a woman and as a human being. Because that is the only way our kids can really see the joy of life, by us setting the example. Sure it’s hard.. I have a 5 year old now who was colicky, highly sensitive and immediately overstimulated as a baby, when too many people were near her, a super light sleeper.. you get it, and it is easy to feel like you’re becoming a victim to this and I insist that I find ways to love life and be the best mom I can be at the same time. Energy does so much! If you live in a relaxed energy and just flow with what comes and stand in your creative power as a woman and do what you love while still trying to be a good mom (I have to admit I needed to work on this so much and it took me about 3 years to kind of master this) then your kid will see it and will want to follow your example. She is a handful.. but these kids chose us to be their physical guardians and vessels for them to enter the planet in this time of ascension. We can do this AND be the best versions of ourselves! I can relate, I feel like that too, and I acknowledge those feelings when they come up, feeling like it is too much, too hard, too intense, but I immediately check myself, and go ok.. I am not truly aligning with that on the grander scale, I am feeling like this in the moment, I can change it now, and choose a different feeling and experience for myself.”

There ARE ways to still be a good mom and still make time for yourself

There ARE ways to insist on self-development and still be a good mom

There ARE ways to connect with spirit and your God-essence and still be a good mom

  • accept help
  • include your kids in your activities
  • model conscious behavior
  • spend more time outside
  • organisation is key

Right now as I am developing a growing baby bump again and plagued by the occasional exhaustion. I am working on illustrations for an awesome kid’s book written by a friend of mine, active kindergartner at home for the summer, regular day job and attempting to offer other creative things and little by little jotting down paragraphs for this little e-book. If I can do it then other moms can do it too. So moms, let this Lion’s gate be the powerful surge of energy that you need to truly even become more radiant and stand in your creative power and let go of what’s holding you back!